Monday, July 18, 2011

Esteem

The magazines, TV's, and models said she didn't look good
So naive innocent little girl then did whatever she could
To make the magazines, TV's, and models accept her
Cause now she felt everyone was beautiful except her
When in reality it was quite actually the opposite
If looks were musical records, this girl was a hit
But the magazines, TV's, and models didn't let her know that
They lied to her, said she was ugly and that she's a throwback
So she lost all self-esteem in the face of her oppressors
She became bulimic, lost her weight, and then covered her dresser
With lip-stick containers, mascara, and the opposite of lesser
The kinda crap that makes scumbag men wanna undress her
Trying to get recognition cause her position showed abolition
And trying to get all those who ignored her to listen
Cause she never got second looks when she was naturally beautiful
So she turned to cosmetics to make the average Joes quite Viewtiful
And as the fame grew her tiny heart decayed
She never fixed the self-esteem issues, so the problem remained
Now these boys tried to get in her and pretty soon she let loose
She then did the grown folks thing and gave innocence a noose
Cause she felt she needed the glamour and all the boys' attention
And if her soul was the cost, she payed it as the attention's pension
And in a few years she'd be past reconciliation
She lost it all trying to get a piece of that Californication
She started off with hope and promise. She could have been esteemed!
But the magazines, TV's and models robbed her of her self-esteem.

Friday, July 15, 2011

Who Is My Worst Enemy?

Sitting in the room; another night alone
Outta nowhere a masked marauder came and smashed my dome
Broke a glass bottle and stabbed me right by the heart
Then said: "I'll watch you die slow. I'ma tear you apart"
Right before I could strike back he threw another hit to my spine
"You always were a weak one; believe me, I aint lyin'!"
So now I'm paralyzed from the neck down and hearing the taunts
Who the hell is this guy? What the hell does he want?
Why is he doing this? Why cause me this pain?
Is it possible to be so cold-heartedly inhumane?!
"I am your worst nightmare. I'm what you now despise most.
I've been around you your whole life watching you roast.
I've done it behind the scenes. I almost made you suicidal.
Slowly taking away your soul; slowly taking away your vitals.
Somewhat like DeCaprio I raided your dreams. 
If hatred and regret was fabric, than I'm sewing your seams.
I despise you with all my heart; my hate for you beams!"
For a moment he grew quiet, and just watched me suffer
The room now a pool of my blood and the blood of no other
But screams weren't just from me, there was also another,
It was the maniacal laugh of the one out to get me
Still wearing a mask and a heart still on empty.
He watches for a few hours as death comes to get me
Pale face, no embrace, and slight epilepsy
I wasn't grasping for hope; I knew my end was near.
But who is the masked marauder that brought me here?
Why did he do this? Why is my death to him lovely?
Just then, before I died, the masked man hovered above me
"I bet you want to know why I did this all to you. 
Why I've been torturing you for a while and had the motives to kill you.
When I take off my mask you'll see why I am your worst enemy"
So he took off his mask and then it all made sense to me
My worst enemy hated me so because my worst enemy is me.